Have to suppress the memory of feeling alone during my lung disease following the post-election outrage

It has been a little challenging to be around friends and family this week, as everyone is up in arms about Donald Trump being elected. Emotions are running very high, and people are posting all kinds of stuff and going to the protests and professing strong emotions/crying.  We are a funny breed – people are in near hysterics about our President, but with a few exceptions I heard little more than chitchat when I went through my serious lung disease five years ago (i.e. some family was there (especially my sister), my wife and kids were there of course, and a few friends reached out, but I definitely didn’t see an outcry 🙂 ).  Again, we are a funny breed – someone we know goes through a serious illness and we send a few “let me know if I can do anything” notes, but Donald Trump is elected and there is an outpouring of emotion.  It is hard not to feel something about that, in essence that my life is less important to most people than the presidential election. Kind of strange to think about, and again gives me a sense of perspective as to how much to invest of myself in those people around me.  And that I have to be my own best ally and best friend, and can’t invest my sense of self-worth in the emotions or care of the broader base of people in my life.

From my perspective, Donald Trump is less real and less scary to me as a person than the disease that lurks in my lungs and which can erupt at any time.  Donald Trump might be crazy, but he is far less likely to kill or maim me than the lung.  Thus, I feel a little less emotionally invested than the devestated people around me.  

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Have to suppress the memory of feeling alone during my lung disease following the post-election outrage

I wondered if Trump might win, but I fully expected Clinton to route him today

I remember the election of 1984 when Reagan absolutely routed Mondale.  This year, I always wondered if Trump would win, but I woke up today fully expecting Clinton to route Trump today, that when the emotions settled down and when people went to cast their vote they’d vote for the “safe” choice of Clinton (like I did 😦 ).  So I am stunned that as I type this Trump is probably going to be president of the USA.  To me, people aren’t really voting for Trump – they are saying they want change.  They are saying they are tired of making 8/hr and having to work Thanksgivings at Walmart while fleets of rich people get richer and richer and ship more and more jobs overseas, turn it over to automation or hire slave labor and fire 1000s of people without penalty while paying themselves millions. Today’s election was a cry for change, and the funny thing is that even if the stocks tank tomorrow it won’t hurt the 401Ks of the people who voted for Trump since none of them can afford 401Ks anyway.  In most ways I am terrified today, and I am upset overall, and I am sick to my stomach that we elected a racist and sexist president, but in some small ways I am proud of America for making a statement.  Trump is the wrong execution of the right idea. 😦  Unfortunately, Hitler was a wrong execution too…  In the 18th century we had the Shay’s rebellion when the poor felt extorted by the rich – today the USA voted for Trump.

I wondered if Trump might win, but I fully expected Clinton to route him today

After telling myself and preaching for months that I was going to write in Bernie Sanders for president, I chickened out in the end…

I feel like Hilary Clinton is corrupt, past her prime and will ensure that the USA will stay broken, but also feel that Donald Trump is crazy (truly – I believe he is mentally ill) and will break things even more, so don’t want either one (at all) for President. So for months I’ve been thinking I was going to write in Bernie Sanders to prove a point.  But in the end I chickened out, and voted for the person I thought would be the least destructive for president.  Gawd, what a terrible time this is for US politics…  

After telling myself and preaching for months that I was going to write in Bernie Sanders for president, I chickened out in the end…

My personal opinion: I am using my right to vote to write in Bernie Sanders to express my hope that our country will get its soul back from the devil (Corporate America and wealthy sociopaths like Trump and Clinton)

My ballot is here.  As I’ve mentioned before, Americans have died for my right to vote however I please – i.e. the price for me to vote was the highest possible.  And in my opinion, this presidential election is the worst of my five decades of life and neither candidate is deserving, for different reasons but ultimately both are self-absorbed and corrupt.  To vote for Trump is like voting for a lesser Hitler, but Clinton is as corrupt as they come and one thing I know is that the US needs to change and a vote for Clinton will ensure all the existing issues — racism, labor abuses, wage inequality and using our military to impose our Corporate America agendas — will continue.  So, with all that in mind, I am voting for Bernie.  This way, I am keeping my soul intact;  absolutey worse case, Trump will be elected, there will be outrage across our country and the world, and it might be the real first step in our country getting its soul back from the devil (Corporate America and Fortune 500 sociopaths).   I’ve never seen a more divisive election, which is saying something, but the beauty of my journal/blog and of America is I can express my opinion and vote how I want, so here goes… 🙂 

My personal opinion: I am using my right to vote to write in Bernie Sanders to express my hope that our country will get its soul back from the devil (Corporate America and wealthy sociopaths like Trump and Clinton)

I am soooo tired of seeing Trump’s name in the news!!

I don’t like Donald Trump.  I’ve already read about him, know he is scum, know he encouraages bigots to come out of the woodwork, and his only success as a businessman comes from exploiting the system (I love the joke that all his books end with “Chapter 9”).  So I am very tired of seeing his name in every headline and every publication every day.  I will be veeerryyy glad when this election is over.

I am soooo tired of seeing Trump’s name in the news!!

Commentary: Encouraged and discouraged that many Americans realize Clinton is as corrupt as Trump

According to the News yesterday, this election is unprecendented for how many registered voters don’t like or want either candidate.  Most people I know talk about moving out of the country if Trump is elected, but what I find encouraging (and discouraging) is that people realize how corrupt Hilary Clinton is.  I used to love the Clintons, but a few years ago when my wife started studying at depth for her Global Health initiatives, we were both surprised to learn how corrupt Bill and Hilary Clinton are.  Over time, it grew where I didn’t want her to be president at all, as it would make us not much different than those third world countries with corrupt leaders.  But still Clinton is better than Trump, who is equallty as corrupt and a Hitler Mini-Me to boot.  But change — long-term change — can’t happen without recognition, so although I am horribly worried about the next four years (at least), and least Americans are savvy enough to see Clintons as corrupt.  So maybe this is another step closer to change. 

This election as much as any reminds me of how important it is for kids to read 1984 and Animal Farm, as well as All The President’s Men.  We can’t take domestic Liberty for granted, even in America.   

Commentary: Encouraged and discouraged that many Americans realize Clinton is as corrupt as Trump